A Rambling Chicken: August 2004

Saturday, August 21, 2004

Blog = A bunch of secrets?

I have always wanted to have a poll and ask fellow bloggers, what do you write about? How personal or impersonal are your blogs? How much "laundry" do you hang out there to dry? Haha.. its a bad analogy, I know that, but I can't help feeling curious about it.

When it comes to my own blog, I am brutally honest about what I write. The initial purpose of blogging had been to express my daily observation, interesting bits that are worth sharing, experiences, feelings and whatever that crossed my mind which triggered my fingers to type. Yes, I have written my fair share of crap, controversial stuff and little bits that sometimes can be offensive to some of my friends. In this little domain that is A Rambling Chicken, the Chicken can write what she wants to. This domain is the only place I can express my views without any implications (usually bad ones) as this is mine and mine alone. But when it comes to the matters of the heart, I do not seem to be able to write them and publish it for the view of all, especially my own friends.

The blog has evolved into a manifestation of the "sarcastic, happy, critic" me as I am unable to write all that I wish to. As much as I try to make this blog a brutally honest one (honestly-brutal as well?), there are still some stuff that I can't bring myself to write about e.g. when I feel really sad or hurt. These are my real feelings at certain times but they are so much more difficult to reveal. It will be a great release when I am able to.

I somehow admire my friend Ken Ric who is able to say that he is lonely. I wish I could do the same. Its not to say that I am, in reality, lonely. Just want to able to say what I genuinely feel. Don't get em wrong, all articles here are what I do feel, only that I have omitted certain topics that I can't bring myself to write about. As this blog has started off as a place for me to honest and open, I see the need for me to write all, the good, the bad and the ugly.

Without the ugly bits, I feel as if this blog is going no where. In fact, it sounds like a great denial case too! As much as I do not want to live in denial, I still find it difficult to say, hey, I am sad here.

So, friends don't feel alarmed when my blogs mellow down at times. I am trying to be as human as you are. I am flesh and blood too in a domain that is A Rambling Chicken. And... yes, the Chicken has rambled her fair share of stuff for the day.. finally.

Friday, August 13, 2004

Religious me :o)

I have read this quote by Gandhi in one of my book. It says (something like this):

"All religions of the world converge into one common point, which is to find God".

For me this saying is a breath of fresh air, as I live in an environment where religion really matters, and if you are in a "wrong " type of religion, you are dead meat. In a way, you become like a leper, you are not worthy of anything because you are from a "not so pure" religious background. I AM from the "wrong " religion. And I am sometimes discriminated upon. I, myself do not believe that there is inequality when it comes to people of differing religions (except people who preach to me despite my obvious reluctance and my many hints at it), I believe that yes, every religion is for the good, and has a common goal of cultivating good behaviour, ethics and love for the people around us.

Well, actually I am in no state to talk about religion as I am not the most religious person on earth, and I am on the verge of paganism. I do not have very strong feelings for God. I live on a moral system that can govern me to be a nicer person to fellow human beings and an ethic system that makes sure I do my fair share of responsibilities. I have always think that this is sufficient for me and I can say that I live as a person regret-free because I know that I have been generally nice to people and have been helpful and sincere. I am not perfect for sure, everyone is not. But, you see, somebody actually "gleefully" told me that I am "definitely" going to hell because I am not from this "particular" religion despite what good that I have done. Don't you think this is discrimination and ignorance to the max?

This leads me to question: Isn't it wrong when God punish you not when you fail to do any good, but when you are in the "wrong club"? Or have fellow people got the concept wrong?

I remember on an outing with a few friends, and I was asked to sit with the guys because I am not from that religion and she can't sit with the guys. What does that make me? Go figure.. And I was penalized for wearing a sleeveless top.

I do not think that we are created to be fried in hell in the very end of things. Did God create us for fun to see us meet our cruel fate? As a matter of fact, he/she was the one who dictated whch religion we are born into. I did not choose which family to be borned into, I don't remember doing that. Things just happen, they just be. If it is realy true that only one particular religion is true and the other are all bogus and all the "other" people have to choose either to fry in hell or convert to save their souls? When this happens, does this make somebody's journey to heaven easier and the other much harder? This makes it not fair and God could have just created everybody equal.

Another assumption of mine is, since God created everyone different in terms of fate, religion, lifestyle, skin colour et cetera, don't you think that actually "reincarnation" and "karma" makes more sense as not everyone gets fair treatment?

I am glad that all the while I take religions with a huge pinch of salt. maybe I am wrong but I prefer to use my logic more. And I have tried to be a good person, just that I am not bounded in a specific religion and I do not have a club membership but I am equally glad and I feel calm too!

Well, I guess that I will just keep being me and I will keep my stand of not discriminating people despite of choice of religion. Just leave me alone at appropriate times and try best not to impose your self-righteous value systems on me. Just like me for who I am and respect me as a friend. I will greatly appreciate you for that.